The Reality of Everything

I can’t preface this blog post any other way than by saying what happened last night sucked. This blog post is not a happy one. It’s depressing as hell, really. Okay, maybe not hell, since I imagine that’s much more depressing than this. I digress…

As some of you reading this may know, Jenny and I have been working for the same company for the last 10 months as writers of various blog content. Heck, she’s gotten some of you jobs, so what happened last night affects a multitude of people. Not just us. Anyway, we were told that there’s cutbacks, so our services are no longer needed. Jenny’s still are to a certain degree, but mine have gone the way of the dodo bird. This is only the second time I have been out of a job since I started busting my ass at 15 years of age. It wouldn’t be so bad except…

Jenny and I are in the process of trying to get married. We’ve been going through all the proper channels, filling out immigration forms, paying the various fees. I think we’ve spent about $700 or so dollars so far. Now that we’re out of work though, it looks like the worst has happened and things might be put on hold for a while. This coming just a week or so after I got my package from immigration informing me of all the necessary steps I have to take to move on to the final process.

The only problem is, the final process costs around $5,000.

Shit. We’re just two people that want to get married for crying out loud.

Now I don’t know what we’re going to do. I have a soon-to-be-stepdaughter. My roommate in Toronto is moving out and since I can’t relocate to the United States until I get the Visa crap sorted out, I have to keep my apartment at $1000/month somehow. It’s just one thing on top of another, you know?

This is not a blog post looking for sympathy. I’m just telling you how it is. People lose their jobs everyday, and I’m just another victim of the system, I guess. Somehow we’ll get through it. We’ve each been through worse in our lives separately, and now we’re going through something shitty together. We stayed up until 3 am last night trying to figure it all out. It’s scary – terrifying even – but we have each other. What did the Beatles say about needing love?

Anyway, that’s where we’re at right now. In love and limbo all at once. It sucks, it’s depressing, it’s frightening, and I’m scared shitless.

I’m setting up a Chip In widget below should any of you want to help us continue on in our journey to get married and start our lives together. We’ll still do it even if no one contributes a dime, but it’s going to take a hell of a lot longer now. Maybe a year or more, instead of the few months we were hoping for.

I can’t offer anything tangible in return, unfortunately. All I can do is keep writing words, podcasting them for your enjoyment, and hope like hell things work out in the interim while I look for work.

It’s been a hell of a week. How are you?

~JM